Inmost - Utterly a Life of Love

Was anyone created to impede two to reunite?


How quickly can life turn around;

how quickly can life simply end?


Up above from the clouds life on earth seems so tiny.

Flying at speed & without having yet ejected the parachute
makes life nothing but a gift to embrace!


Was anyone created to impede two to love each other?


A person living all alone is a person who does not live love,
and that was,
still is,
and will continue to be
the greatest poverty in our world!

Sickness? Hunger?

Those two questions above fall short!!!

Rather, what about feeling unloved?


Was anyone created to impede two to love each other?

My Feet Feel the Sand, My Hand Holds Your Hand

I remember telling you the story of the aroma of love,

the aroma of you!


Looking with my eyes closed while at complete rest,
wrapped up in the most peaceful embrace,

the embrace of you!


Dreaming of moments of unforgettable smiles,
with a home full of joy, built in God, full of love,

the love of you!

Feeling Inadequate?

Dressing with less to appear not having enough?

Showing the worst to gain the "best"?




In my life, I may not have anything.


Born penniless; dead penniless.


I have found everything in not having a single thing.

My Prayer for Today

Guard up her heart Lord!,

Guard up her heart!

Give her your strength now,
that she may rest in you.


Guard up my heart Lord!,

Guard up my heart!

Give me your strength now,
that I may rest in you.


Guard up our heart Lord!,

Guard up our heart!

Give us your strength now,
that we may rest in you.

Be Creative, You Name the Title

So much so much so much
so much love!


All the trees dance, the leaves roar,

no other woman compares to you.


Today I trust in the Lord,
he will teach us and others how beautiful it is to love.


So much so much so much
so much love!

Forever

The stars remain faithful to the sky,

each bringing a kiss to it each night;



The moon reamains faithful to the sun,

walking hand in hand despite being far;



The wind and rain remain faithful to the flower,

taking it on a journey to the perfect bliss.



Only those whose
love is
a love that loves

remain faithful to love.

Love remains faithful to those who seek to love faithfully!

After Your Words Uplifted Me, Your Confirmation

For years long you have put your
dream and passion
as dream and passion of mine Lord,

to help those in need!



"Endow the king with your justice,
O God,
the royal son with your
righteousness...


...He will defend the afflicted among
the people
and save the children of the
needy;
he will crush the oppressor...


...In his days the righteous will
flourish;
prosperity will abound till the moon
is no more...


...For he will deliver the needy who cry
out,
the afflicted who have no one to
help.
He will take pity on the weak and
the needy
and save the needy from death.


He will rescue them from
oppression and violence,
for precious is their blood in his sight..."


Psalm 72

Give me Paddles Even

In a year in which the clock will not show minutes anymore,

the age in love will not be relevant,

all the colors of your preference will be picked by you,

and the fragrance of you on-in me will find a name to love.


Don't blame me for this God,

the blame you have taken for me before.


Give wings to those dreams you have impressed upon my mind and heart;

make my mind and heart converse for long,

allow them to put to death all propaganda,

and as their walk together continues
shield them,
let them fear no more the harm of enemies.


In a year in which love will...

TUMAINI

As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, O God.

² My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?

³ My tears have been my food
day and night,
while men say to me all day long,
"Where is your God?"

⁴ These things I remember
as I pour out my soul:
how I used to go with the multitude,
leading the procession to the house of God,
with shouts of joy and thanksgiving
among the festive throng.

⁵ Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and ⁶ my God.
My soul is downcast within me;
therefore I will remember you
from the land of the Jordan,
the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.

⁷ Deep calls to deep
in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me.

Psalm 42. 1-7

And What to do With my Resources?

“Hurricane Jeanne took all that I
had…my job and my home are gone.
Iused to havefood. Now I beg in the market.”

Rosy-Claire Zepherin, Gonaives, Haiti, 2005



“We are eating only a little once a day to make the maize last longer,
but even then
it will last only a short time. Then we are in trouble.”

Margaret Mpondi, Mphako, Malawi, 2002



“If the rains fail like they did last year we will go hungry.
The rich have savings.
They have stocks of food. They can sell their oxen for cash.
But what do I have? If I sell my ox how will I plant next year?
If my crop fails we have nothing. It is always like that.
Everything depends on rain.”

Kaseyitu Agumas, Lat Gayin, southern Gonda, Ethiopia, 2007



“We had never seen such floods before. Lots of houses were destroyed, lots of people died,
our agricultural land was submerged, crops stored in houses were lost. Many livestock
were lost too. We were just not prepared to face such big flooding.
So we didn’t have any savings of money or food.”

Pulnima Ghosh Mahishura Gram Panchayat, Nadia District, West Bengal, India, 2007

In the Same Page

I saw it,
perfect orange and bright yellowish,

dressed with all splendor,
greeting each of the waves with a gentle touch.


I saw it,
and my mind could not define its color,

my spirit impressed by its magnificence,
too much to contemplate from it and be in awe for.


Many days of darkness,
many days as mirrors of sadness,

days of quietness,
days of darkness.

And still breathing is free,
smiling is not a burden,
and dreaming is hoping.

Sunsets are to be seen,
flowers to be smelled,
thunders to be heard,
stars to be recited to,
and oceans to be touched.


I lift up my eyes...

Panoramic View

A price that has been paid albeit all the cost.


²¹Once you were alienated from God and were enemies in your minds
because of your evil behavior.

²²But now he has reconciled you by Christ's physical body
through death to present you holy in his sight,
without blemish and free from accusation—

²³if you continue in your faith,
established and firm,
not moved from the hope held out in the gospel.

This is the gospel that you heard
and that has been proclaimed
to every creature under heaven,
and of which I, Paul, have become a servant.

Colossians 1.

A Bee in Search of Food

BBBBZZZZZzzzzzz ...


Just close your eyes.

Remember now?


It will never end,

its home is firmly grounded,

its extent has no end.


Remember me?

Colors, Faces, Expressions...Rich Difference

Racism might not have a cure,

but love has no limits.

Ocean Home

In a place with no terms of beginning or end,

where our love can be thought, felt and lived.


Born with no key.


In a place where each season brings indefinite number of years,

where our love can be remembered, experienced and hoped for.



Le coeur a ses raisons que la raison ne connaît point


In a place where my words are what you long to hear,

where my deepest expression of love is what you dream of.


Born to love you.

How is Your World?

I remember seeing her face,

the pain in her eyes,

the cry inside her for another minute to spend at his side,

but she could not revive him,

she was not able to enjoy him in life anymore.


Disfigurement all over his body...his face!
Rugged hands that reflected years of torture.

And I will not forget
his eyes.


Just a couple of days ago:

"Walk away Javi, just walk away from her"


Perhaps love is understood
when a life speaks through the last sentence,

when a life realizes that all is lost.


Is love's home in a world of "all is a loss"?

Yes, indeed!

TODAY AS IT IS FOR TOMORROW:

I conjecture that a life lived in love
will experience gain in the last sentence instead of loss -

for such a life has already experienced gain
through a life lived in true love.

What Do You Fear?

Together to make it through,

walking on the sunlight,

closer at your side to lift you up,

leaving solitude behind.


Together to live each day,

walking on the moonlight,

never letting you go,

growing in learning how to love you TODAY.

As the Foam Runs After Your Feet

The thought of more than a conviction,

&
the feeling of more than a desire...


I want to hold your hand,

kiss your cheek

&
whisper to your ear that I LOVE YOU!


I want to play with you until you get tired,

I want to listen to all of your giggles

and take you on a tour of admiration,
one in which you are able to dream big,
one in which you are able to feel loved above all.


Little one, little one,

listen deep inside,

in your heart I left a promise!

Titles of NO SIGNIFICANCE

Dr. Crescendett vowed to
save lives - rest in peace his best interest.


Titles of respect represent honor, not achieved or gained,
but lived - concerns akin to uninterrupted acts of meeting the needs of others,
LOVING UNCONDITIONALLY.


Oh! Mr. and Mrs.;
pound-foolish those who think a title gives respect
and elevates the soul.


I have realized that the people I love the most
I call them by their name,

and they call me by my name.


I have realized that the people that love others the most
others call them by their name,

and they call others by their name too.


These people address themselves and sign the most important
pieces of communication
with their name - title of no appearance and full of meaning!


INFERENCE:

Make your name refuse a title!

Make your name love a smile!

The Manual

For better or worse,

DO NOT scratch the wound even if it itched.



Become an art lover & dealer,

finding each day your vocation

and living for something beyond happiness;

learn how to buy and sell the art of love.


UNDERSTAND IT WELL:

IT IS NOT A MATTER OF TREATING PEOPLE AS COMMODITIES.


Become an artist!

Appreciate even the simplest drawings,
and learn to recognize each masterpiece...

...even the softest wind carries secretly
the greatest exalting praise to its own Creator.

(((( Splash ))))

I figure you are not...


Embracing simple memories.


You made me believe and feel
you were alive with me.


Enjoying each moment our eyes would meet.


I will not fall into conformity.
I cannot add another hour...


Embracing the desire of simple company.


...Nor a lost hour recall.


Hoping for another kind of blue.


I will think of new song to sing,
and look for a new pair of sunglasses that I can soon throw away.

Romantically Phrased

Losing remembrance,

staring at the shade of steps,

overlooking the dance of everything dancing.


“You already know enough. So do I.
It is not knowledge we lack.
What is missing is the courage to
understand what we know and
to draw conclusions.”

Sven Lindqvist


Today, ignorance is no defence.

today, on the front line, all is found.


How many types of fish exist?


Nearing the limit,
and yet trying to ensure that the window remains open,

perhaps that could mean that we don't have another day
to sit down and try to think about a plan.


Faith is when active,

love is a daily action.

Chain Reaction

They want you to applaud,
then you applaud,

they want you to not say a word,
then you remain quiet.


You come in a 7 piece set,
and they claim to have 10 from you.


Your mind and heart are independent,
your soul is your soul,

they should and are only dependent
upon your love for your Savior,
upon His love for you!

3 Lines

Touching the antonyms,

perceiving the plausibility,

opening my eyes to more than 2 colors.

While Throwing a Ticket Away

So, I put my hands behind my ears,

but I notice that your silence speaks louder...

...words, they always fall short!


You once said to me:

"I don't need to go far from you to grow with you"


Bile...perhaps tomorrow I should
drive a car at a 180 km/hr.

Bile, be sent to the sun and burn, burn, burn!



And in the intensity of all the fighting
awaiting for a new wave to face,

I will learn not to panic,
how to fight alone,
and to look to have fun.

Life Passes Each Day...

Walking in circles in all ways straight,

trying to find you,

walking in circles,
but nowhere to hold you and just be with you.


Dreaming at daylight,

hoping to have you,

dreaming at night when all is dark,
somewhere to stand and reach out for you.


I feel as if you out of fear gave it all up,
not truly your heart calling for mine,

I feel as if you could no longer hold the cup,
and you buried in deep all the stars' shine.


And still I tried not only to walk but to run in circles,

wanting to see you,

running in circles,
yet nowhere to find you,
to hold you and be with you,

nowhere to have you,
and to reach out for you.

Rooted and Grounded

For this reason I kneel before the Father,
from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name.

I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being,
so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith.

And I pray that you,
being rooted and established in love,
may have power, together with all the saints,
to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,

and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—
that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.

Ephesians 3. 14

What Else?

What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us?
He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?

Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies.

Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us.

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?

As it is written:
"For your sake we face death all day long;
we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered."

No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8. 31

578,160 Hours

From those nights that frightened you,

and the moments that you did not want to dive in alone,

my mind and heart learned how to let you know
that I was at your side.




"Even through fire you never abandon your partner"...


How to decide differently from a decision that you have already decided?

How to stand far far away from a soap opera?

How to remain strong in what I thought was a common...


While thinking about that 88 year of my life

the thought arrives;
this is the thought of the time when I
also read some words, somewhere,
perhaps in a note:

"When you have time to judge people
you don't have time to love them"

Underwater?

Today I heard another voice:

"I was just calling you to tell you:

That your daughter is amazing,

I am thrilled to have spent time at her side this weekend,

what a beautiful lady she is"

Today I opened my drawer,

but this time I found no socks.


And I saw this lady kissing a little girl,

she also helped to carry some of the groceries,

she smiled and said hello to me.


So, I was left with going through life with my flip flops.

INSIDE LOVE

Today,
while staring at this big mirror,
at the many trees standing tall,
and the leaves flying by,

the waves would expand from my furious throw of a rock into the water.

My mind created this thought for some time:

"I cannot find the essence of love in a break,
but in the absence of a break to only love"


And I think the Canada geese went away
because they felt frightened by the rock's constant fighting.

But the thought did not leave me,
it is still within me,
it will stay inside me.

And in the Wind

Another dark blanket poses in the horizon.

The silence of your words

and the absence of your presence

become the sparkle of unending thoughts.


My hand tries its best to stop the swing of a sword,

my hand is hurt but holds the sword,
and does not let it go.


I battle with my prayers,
and try to learn to ask what to pray for.


And as I discover the infinite beauty of the dark blanket,
I also learn to hide my soul's sighing:

Who claims this love entirely?
Who does this love belong to?
Who lives and loves unconditionally for this love unconditional?



And I like it even when you are silent,
I hope to kiss the wind,
hoping that the wind will kiss you too.

My voice is not what now touches your ears,
and yet you are able to listen,
because my words I send them in the wind.


And with a world that I don't understand,
hoping for the sword to disappear,
and for my hand to hold your hand,

deep inside I think I carry the best plan to love you more,
but the love I have for you,
for best to best,
cannot be questioned,
and it also cannot be measured,

I truly love you!

And perhaps I love you
with a mind that does not think well,
with a heart that feels desperate,
with a soul that cries too much,
without a reason to understand why I love you so much,

but I know that I DO LOVE YOU!

I LOVE YOU!

GIFT MADE TO LOVE.

To come back,

in hands that would lift us up,

the best lifetime friend said once to me that it would surmount all.




In many ways our words are good now, again and again to form their storytelling.


Find peace about the most beautiful love in closing your eyes,
and feel it inside,

but it is not in you without the hope of love,

the faith that never moves out.


Today I sat at the edge of a pond that was a mirror for trees,

I sat down at the spot where love overwhelmed two hearts,

at the same place where a question and a half way answer turned into
the most beautiful hello and goodbye of all.

And today I felt many days and nights at your side,

the sprinkling of water drops,

the morning of a day that turned into a drop in the deep blue ocean,
and in that morning, my arms in your arms.


I am not playing a game within any team,

or intending to smile for someone's face,

appearing to afford things with treasures that can't afford...


...I am just waiting for you,

and meanwhile I do,

I'll just pray to better wait for you.

10 Months and in 10 Months

To remember you,

your heart inviting mine,

your eyes reflecting the stars,

and your arms bringing all the warmth.


Dreaming with you I cannot fight,

thinking and feeling your love each day
and each night.


Who thought and thinks about it,

I love you more thank you know,

I love you more than I know,

I love you not knowing where the stars begin or end,

and yet I know I love being near to you.


To remember you,

that each day I will love more and more your love,

and as time goes by,
knowing that you are here with me,

I will rest in the warmth of your presence.

To remember you,

that each day I know you love me,
and I know I love you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DYXdLswOLts&feature=related

Fast Forward

Today

A bird flies,

a wave crashes

and again

a star shines.


You and your wealth,
in such a way as to suggest all your hopes and fears
on it placed,

caged in a conundrum in this simple life,
belonging to a race of haves,

your days, confined in a time that for you it rushes.


You and your demands,
jumbled in all of your wants,
displaced from the true home of your heart.


What do you ask for?


Can you even ask for the 60th part of a minute to come back?

Can you ask for life to repeat?


And what is the mystery of peace?


Today I might die.


Tomorrow

A bird will fly,

a wave will crash,

and not just one,

but many stars will shine.

Dying to Rising

Prayer of St. Francis di Assisi:


Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;

where there is injury, pardon;

where there is doubt, faith;

where there is despair, hope;

where there is darkness, light;

where there is sadness, joy;


O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as
to console;

to be understood as to understand;

to be loved as to love.


For it is in giving that we receive,
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;

and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

JaHaJaHaJaHaJaHa!

So, as my best friend would say to me...

I already can hear the words:

"You cook for an army"


WHILE
Cooking for an army,

slicing my banana,
and dumping a lot of real maple syrup on my panqueques,

these two great songs below,
through the deep meaning of the words
but also their contagious rhythm,
put a lot into perspective,



and they served as carriers of some good laughing and dancing time!

...and perhaps you could say that the words of these songs
are nothing but relativism.


For me, though,
life is a gift,
a gift of love,
the gift of salvation.

Life is a gift to live out in love!

Life, life, life, life,

love, love, love, love!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vaPIrbmEj5E

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tTvhW8lDHFk

Writing About Wanting to Cry

And I don't want to cry.

I don't want to cry.


"Boys are tough,
they don't cry!"


And I don't want to cry.

Are hearts made to be stepped on, just like rocks?

The last sentence of love, which one is it?

My fear to lose you:

What if you were to die?
next second?
in 5 minutes?
Even tomorrow?

What if you were to die?

It's all a lie,
boys do cry!

The most beautiful thing about it:

I cry because of your love.

I want to love you as you are alive,

and not to cry you with disgraceful sorrow when dead,

or to regret not having loved you with all my love!


I want to let you know that I love you as you are alive!

The Same Growing Love

Each day,

as I keep on loving you,

without ever forgetting you,

and with thoughts of you, bigger than just dreams,

completely lost in the oceans of your love,

the words of my eyes will send all of my love to you.


Those 4 words I will recall:

God, home, hope, love...




I will say yes to you, I will always love you.


When was the last time that you were so loved?
When was the last time that I was so loved?

I will not think of and embrace the last time,
no last time is the time to think of the last and of time that lasts:


I want to wake up in a thought and feeling lost in a field of flowers!
I want to wake up in a hello with a smile that does not lack love!
I want to wake up with you at my side at the shore of the ocean!
I want to wake up with you at my side at the light of a sunset!


Credit gained through being a fearful one...

...perhaps even a coward who wants to love and loves to want to love.


But even when living within names and titles,
when living in a bureaucracy of love,
in a demanding love of appearance,
in a system that is self-protective,
in a love that sees the biggest mistakes of the world,


my eyes will be fixed in a love of hope that in hope will find your love!

And yet this love I will not handle in my own hands.

I will no longer orchestrate it.

A Star Times Trillions

My eyes will keep on searching for the stars!

Not My Math

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MV63_Vmf-74


I cannot measure you,

my perspective about you falls short.

You Lord,

you gave me the most beautiful sunset,

you amazed me with lines of sand that looked like waves,

the colors you painted in the sky filled my inner eyes with awe,

you became my first thought, my first love!


And how many more days?

And not even my reasoning about time is right!

...

Love?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ubGCISQQ7Zo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nwzt9jRUPNg

¹⁸ Who is a God like you,
who pardons sin and forgives the transgression
of the remnant of his inheritance?

You do not stay angry forever
but delight to show mercy.

¹⁹ You will again have compassion on us;
you will tread our sins underfoot
and hurl all our iniquities into the depths of the sea.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0l6jMCV4DVI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MV63_Vmf-74

Looking Back Someday

Inscribe in my grave stone,

though never buried,

at least not to my preference...

...but if for some reason such a stone came to existence,

then engrave the following:


Life with a love with no end


And now, who cares?


Life is short some say,

others say life is not short, you only need to live happy...

...happy?

⁷ Again I saw something meaningless under the sun:

⁸ There was a man all alone;
he had neither son nor brother.
There was no end to his toil,
yet his eyes were not content with his wealth.
"For whom am I toiling," he asked,
"and why am I depriving myself of enjoyment?"
This too is meaningless—
a miserable business!

⁹ Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their work:

¹⁰ If one falls down,
his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
and has no one to help him up!

¹¹ Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?

¹² Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

(Ecclesiastes 4)

Closely...

Across the ocean,

at the light of trillions of stars,

through the wind blowing above rivers,

thinking of a later duet!


And many times people think it is not good for anything,

but it is the source of life to...




Me,
is it the best to be by myself?

It seems,
do I quit and give up?

Like a deep question,
why not just paint and sing alone?

And I think,
should I stop holding?

I should rest at peace,
what could be better?


Thought knocked the door,

and Why did not walk away?


...know:

¹⁶ No king is saved by the size of his army;
no warrior escapes by his great strength.

¹⁷ A horse is a vain hope for deliverance;
despite all its great strength it cannot save.

¹⁸ But the eyes of the LORD are on those who fear him,
on those whose hope is in his unfailing love...

(Psalm 33)

Douse

I used to think I could fight the ocean waves,

that I could take them down with my body strength.


¹ The king's heart is in the hand of the LORD;
he directs it like a watercourse wherever he pleases.

² All a man's ways seem right to him,
but the LORD weighs the heart.

³ To do what is right and just
is more acceptable to the LORD than sacrifice.

STRATEGA!

³⁰ There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan
that can succeed against the LORD.

³¹ The horse is made ready for the day of battle,
but victory rests with the LORD.

(from Proverbs 21)